pray for rain but brace for whiskey

Not visiting that couple in Boston after all. Need to close that door, emotionally as well as sexually. That hurts, in a different way than the last few rejections have hurt. All of the rejections hurt, even now, in different ways for different reasons.

Still have friends I want to see in Boston, though. Need to keep making friends, local to New York as well as not-local. Need to rebuild and reshape my support structure as a whole, and it needs the fresh materials.

Have a job lined up but due to bureaucracy can't start until mid-September. It's not a dream gig, but it uses my skills and seems at least somewhat geared towards making the world a better place (as much as any non-education job can do so with my skillset), and it's not far from where I currently live. The late start means money is still tight, but it's manageable for the most part. Fuck ton of red tape I need to get through until then, too. Blah.

Really badly burnt out on actively participating in the roguelike community. Love the games still, just don't want to put in the effort towards contributing on a regular basis...but also want to make IRDC New York happen. A conundrum.