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[fandomonymous]

Florida tomorrow, so updates in the meanwhile!

• Habitica has been a great influence so far.
  
  
  
  • One of my tasks is "interact with someone other than parents, PartnerBeast, or coworkers" and that's been great. I went to Poly Cocktails and had great conversations and danced and handed out cookies and silly calling cards I originally had made for RogueCel and have kept up one of those conversations; I'm participating in Discord chats where I had been lurking; stuff's great, honestly.
    
  • I'm keeping up with Duolingo again and actively looking for professional development opportunities/CE credits. I've finished auditing an online Tableau course I'd been putting off.
    
  • I got a hell of a lot of cleaning done, including my windows and my desktop Dithmenos.
    
  • My Dreamwidth is littered with private journal entries of my thoughts, which have taught me that the post-lunch crash is Very Real for me, among other things.
    
  • I'm drinking more things that don't have sugar or alcohol or caffeine.
    
  • My sleep schedule isn't nearly what I want it to be but I'm seeing some improvements.
  
  
• An attempt at a polycule dim sum brunch failed last minute and just...this isn't the first time my metamour T has had some sort of emergency right before I was supposed to see A, that made A cancel. And like, I believe A when she says T is having some Large Problem That Affects Her and thus she can't see me. So in a sense, it's not a "problem", or at least not a fixable one. But also, jesus fuck it's made me really unhappy.
  
• I've had to do a lot of family stuff lately and it's exhausting but honestly our relationships are improving in all directions, so uh, that's something. My parents have been traveling a bunch lately and it's been...invigorating for them? It's most of what we talk about, of course, with Europe coming up.
  
• Unfortunately missed the second RPG day at PB's local comic shop, mostly due to my own mental health issues flaring. Brains and bodies suuuuuuuck.
  
• Did read Dawn by Octavia Butler and the first half of Nonviolent Communication by Marshall Rosenberg, and each has been pinging through my head in interesting ways. Hopefully I'll get to read the rest of the Xenogenesis trilogy (and, uh, the rest of NVC) soon.
  
• I am so ready for Florida. I am not ready at all for Florida. I'm seeing an old flame, and feeling Florida weather, and getting a fancy massage, and seeing old friends, and eating a bunch of things that are hard to get in New York. I'm also seeing all the places I haven't seen since redoing my life, and staying in a house full of memories and trauma and shared signifiers of a relationship that lasted too long, and have to drive a car that reminds me of *other* trauma to do anything. I don't know. I don't know.
  
• I really think I'm going to chop off, like, the vast majority of my hair to something chin-length-or-shorter, a kind of angled bob thing. I've wanted to for years but have been scared and it feels like it's time. Might also get the burgundy lowlights I've been contemplating for years as well. WHO KNOWS.

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[flexagon]

Bleh to metamours with conveniently timed problems, and yay for Octavia Butler. I read that series... if you like her but ever want a one-and-done book rather than a series, Fledgling is good.