Kawa Availability: Weird?
Jan. 10th, 2019 04:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
fandomonymousSo, since I wanted to lurk less and let people into my life through social media more in 2019, and this place counts as social media, might as well update here too.
I was already on a roll of really keeping myself busy:
and thinking up what to post on social media to have it not be drivel is hard when you're out of practice (though I posed one reasonable thread on Twitter, one nice post on Instagram, stopped ignoring my Mastodon, and took the pictures for the monthly food blogging thing [and thus cooked the monthly thing, which was mapo tofu - HELLA GOOD but I want to improve it])
And ...then one of my great-aunts died.
She was 96; it Was A Matter of Time, and her immediate family was there in Large Town, Eastern Pennsylvania[0], so like, whatever. I wasn't super close to her, she wasn't super communicative for most of her life. But one of those immediate family folks - my cousin J, her granddaughter - was already emotionally struggling from a breakup and hard times financially, and was honest and supportive to me despite that when I saw her at Christmas.
[0] North-Northwest of Philadelphia, where J lives. Looking at the map, kinda sorta equidistant from New York City, Large Suburb New Jersey where Alison lives, and Philadelphia itself. Oh, American geography.
Also, my parents are still in the Philippines. I live in New York City, and don't own a car, and don't necessarily *care* about Great-Aunt but do care about J and want to be there with *her* for the funeral and maybe some of the fallout after. So either I find one of the cousins who cares about me less but lives closer to get me to Large Town, or take a Greyhound-style bus; if the buses are infrequent, I'll have to stay overnight, which means last minute hotel or AirBNB. Which I can afford and do, thank you privilege and understanding coworkers, but...UGH.
And did I mention that work is ramping up? And that I don't want to miss Poly Cocktails on Monday or game night on Tuesday?
ahhhhhhhhh. I will either be completely inaccessible to the world or absolutely craving the comforts of my community...honestly probably the latter. One way to find out.
I was already on a roll of really keeping myself busy:
- I am quite successfully ramping up at work and feeling the accompanying pressure; inheriting a broken Tableau dashboard is more work than I anticipated it to be, but that's Fine (tm)
- BiReq is on a condensed schedule this month because "first Monday" and "third Thursday" are just 10 days apart
- relationships are chugging along (Alison is visiting tomorrow! <3 <3)
- building better self-care habits to take care of Future Kawa is hard but a thing I really have been tackling two ways:
- Things I want to do each night: clear the kitchen sink, brush my teeth, plan my clothes for the next day, get to sleep at a reasonable hour. I've succeeded at the first two, had mixed success on the third, and the fourth is HAHAHA AUGH.
- The January Cure, which is a cool idea on a somewhat problematic home design site about refreshing your space to start the year (Is there even such a thing as a not-problematic home design site? Whatever, I follow these guys and a few others thanks to the intense research I did last year on getting furniture and stuff.)
- Things I want to do each night: clear the kitchen sink, brush my teeth, plan my clothes for the next day, get to sleep at a reasonable hour. I've succeeded at the first two, had mixed success on the third, and the fourth is HAHAHA AUGH.
And ...then one of my great-aunts died.
She was 96; it Was A Matter of Time, and her immediate family was there in Large Town, Eastern Pennsylvania[0], so like, whatever. I wasn't super close to her, she wasn't super communicative for most of her life. But one of those immediate family folks - my cousin J, her granddaughter - was already emotionally struggling from a breakup and hard times financially, and was honest and supportive to me despite that when I saw her at Christmas.
[0] North-Northwest of Philadelphia, where J lives. Looking at the map, kinda sorta equidistant from New York City, Large Suburb New Jersey where Alison lives, and Philadelphia itself. Oh, American geography.
Also, my parents are still in the Philippines. I live in New York City, and don't own a car, and don't necessarily *care* about Great-Aunt but do care about J and want to be there with *her* for the funeral and maybe some of the fallout after. So either I find one of the cousins who cares about me less but lives closer to get me to Large Town, or take a Greyhound-style bus; if the buses are infrequent, I'll have to stay overnight, which means last minute hotel or AirBNB. Which I can afford and do, thank you privilege and understanding coworkers, but...UGH.
And did I mention that work is ramping up? And that I don't want to miss Poly Cocktails on Monday or game night on Tuesday?
ahhhhhhhhh. I will either be completely inaccessible to the world or absolutely craving the comforts of my community...honestly probably the latter. One way to find out.